Sorry+Training

I feel like a baby. I have no idea what i really have to do. I follow some clues, i follow the help of Humans and Soldiers groups by Facebook. But i do not feel i am doing something right. What is the meaning of all this? I have to learn. I was too hard with some people in last days. Everybody does what is possible. I am sorry for what i said. I got many mails telling me, maybe i am not wrong, but nobody here is a superman. So, i have to face it: i must grow- I must be patient, learn what is important and what is not. It´s not easy: thing are going to slowly, when i think to my Son. But things are also going to fast, when i think to my mission, and when I do not understand, how exactly can I help my girlfriend Sarah and all the contamined people out there. I have to learn: my luck is not to arrive to the zone. It is, to understand what is my place in this world, what i am doing here, what is the meaning of my life, my role, my mission. I thought first, that is a bad dream. Then i thought, maybe is just a game. Now i am in. And I have to swim.
So i ask sorry for everyone i was too hard too. Please understand one: i am not the MAKER of this story, i am a player like you are. And is sometimes really TOO MUCH!
my nerves are not playing with. But i will try to go on. to get better!

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In the Land Rover(thanks soldiers and humans for your clues!) I found a paper with one adress, "olympic beach" and a tel. number. I called there, the same man like last time, but another number. He told me, i will have to do a lot of things to be OK for the Mission.
First of all: i can not do my mission if i am not fit. My body must be trained. I must find someone that help me in this training.
I should ask all the Humans and Soldiers how is the better way to make a training on the beach.

what the hell.... come on...must I?????? I have other problems in my head (mY SON!!!) as to loose weight.....

...but no, i have no chance, he told me, i MUST get a better body for this job.
I have no idea if someone can help me in this. And, ehy, maybe is some sun and water ok for Sarah.
So i will drive tomorrow my Land Rover with Sarah to the katerini olympic beach, and i will start this training if someone tell me wich plan.

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It is not easy, to act, when you know your child is somewhere in the hands of someone bad. But slowly I feel a new power, i feel, that i am getting stronger and the training and everything will help me to find and help my son.